October 22nd, 2006

puzzle: scattered pieces

End of fall break: Ramblings [gibberish: orange]

Fall break is over. What happened? Oh, that's right. Life happened.

Mum and Dad came down here today. I haven't gone through the entire box of stuff they brought, but they did bring a box of thirty packages of hot chocolate. This will be very important come November. Last year I drank a mug of hot chocolate every day I reached my word count. It was great motivation--and part of the reason I reached 50K on Day 20. Another part of that reason was a fantastic writing enemy who finished way earlier who I did. I should ask her if she wants to be enemies again. She was great motivation, even though I already have two enemies for this year.

I also put a flier for NaNo outside my door. I still need to put up the one I put up last year: "Every time you stop writing, God kills a kitten." Does that make me a kitten murderer now? Well, it's all for a good cause, I suppose.

I don't want to see any more tanks for a very long time. I was finishing my Egrade assignment for DEs, and there was one problem involving tanks that I just can't figure out. I should probably figure it out soon since we get our first test tomorrow. No time limit, open everything except people.

Today I read over zeenell's fic and essay. Now she doesn't have to threaten or stalk me. Yay. (I had the fic since August, okay? I told her that for a reason.) Other than that, visiting with my parents, and reading the story for French, today was fairly ordinary. No, it wasn't. I started laughing like mad while listening to something... I forget what now. I do remember that I was working on aforementioned tank problem, though. I love when that happens. It's a healthy release of emotion. We all need those sometimes, don't we?

I don't know where I am right now. Sometimes I feel like Astra Leigh; I just want to quit school and explore the world for awhile. As spontaneous as I can be, though, I'd want to plan out an adventure as big as that. I just feel trapped, though. No matter where I turn, there's something out to stop me from getting what I want... if I can figure out what that is.

I do want to free myself, though, and soon. Maybe I'm more like Astra Leigh than I thought.