March 6th, 2007

cookie stack

They're holding my two favourite ice creams and telling me I can have only one.

I just got an e-mail from the director of the Valpo research project I applied for.

And I got in. Let the squeeing commence.

But this leads me to a real dilemma. (Can we really call them dilemmas when there's only solution?) I've gotten into Clemson and Valpo, both REUs I really really wanted to get into. This would be an easy decision except I never really one first choice that I held above all others in the first place. Rather, the first choice rotated among three of them, depending on the day and the phase of the moon my mood. Clemson and Valpo were two of them. (Mt. Holyoke is the other in the three-ring spotlight; I haven't heard from them either way yet.)

So I have offers from both of them. And I can choose only one of them. And I have to decide by this Friday. Yes, this Friday. Before I leave for spring break, basically. Meaning I'll have to write one "Yes, I'm coming" e-mail and one "No, I'm not coming" e-mail.

I'm in a fantastic position; it's the agonizing deciding process that's making me go mad. Which one will benefit me more? Not financially; I can figure that one out fairly easily. But which one will I enjoy more? Which one will I come out having learned more--not just about math, but about research, about myself, about what it means to be a mathematician?