February 10th, 2009

sinfest: god puppets

Faith: not just for religion anymore

So, I got sucked into doing ASC Believes last week. For those who don't know, ASC Believes is my school's spinoff of NPR's This I Believe, and it's generally about faith and meaning and other spiritual words that people like to throw around.

Religion and spirituality aren't part of my life, and I'm not exactly closeted about this fact. It's a running joke in my Baudelaire class that I'm atheist, especially when Baudelaire talks about being close to god or being far from god, and of course, god is seen as an inspiration of sorts. So to make this point, Mme K asked if we wanted to be close to god. I said, "I don't care."

And I don't care. I don't believe in any deities, as I haven't been convinced that any such things exist. I don't live my life as if one does. As far as I'm concerned, none do exist, but of course, there's no proof either way. Sure, it's possible, but as far as I'm concerned it's very unlikely, and if I were to believe in one, I'd be fooling only myself. If you want to put me in a box, apathetic atheist (apatheist!) would probably be it.

So when Minda asked me two weeks ago if I would replace her as a speaker at ASC Believes because of a conflict in her schedule, I stopped. Wasn't that about religion? I thought (and asked her). She knows I don't care about that in my everyday life. But on the other hand, I thought, Hey. This could be neat. Show the people that it isn't all about religion. So I accepted the offer, and later that afternoon we went to the religious life office, a place on campus I had never been before, and she introduced me to the chaplain. Chaplain Kate wrote me into the plan and told me a little about what to do and what to expect.

Awesome, write up my entire life philosophy for the next Friday. I could do that. Except... I didn't believe anything. Or did I? I reread the statement again. Faith and meaning. Faith and meaning. Meaning. Faith. Faith. Meaning. I read old LJ entries. I thought about what drove me to some of the decisions I've made, what people know me as. And then I began to write.

And this is what I came up with.

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la tour eiffel

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I finally finished uploading all my pictures from France.


For your viewing pleasure, here they are. The last few haven't been tagged and such, mostly because I just don't feel like it right now. That will come later.

But I'm pretty sure I'm the only one who cares about stuff like that anyway.